Why I Deeply Got to Hate Myself

Hmmm, it’s sad seeing someone hating himself but who knows that it could be the Joy of him who hates himself in as much as it’s for glorious outcome in the Lord.
  But is this practicable among the Christians today as everyone says it is well it is why peace be unto you etc. Jeremiah 6:14
Introduction
Beloved, today we gather to reflect on the profound struggles of self-identity and worth through the experiences of the Apostle Paul. In Romans 7:15, Paul candidly expresses, “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” This brings us to an essential truth: even the most devoted followers can wrestle with deep self-reproach.
   As Christians who wish to do the will of God always, finding himself deviating from the standard of God become shameful acts and there you must be ashamed of yourself as someone who would want to change.
We have to always examine ourselves and if we find out we have are deviated from the standard it is obvious to hate ourselves.
Let’s consider why you can hate yourself as a true believer and ambassador of Christ who would want to raise his hand for God hands without blemishes.
1.Recognition of Sin
   Paul was a Pharisee, deeply committed to the law. Yet, upon his conversion (Acts 9), he realized that legalism could not bring righteousness (Philippians 3:5-6). Romans 7:18 states, “For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh.” Paul’s recognition of his sinful nature led him to detest the sin within himself.

2. Conflict of the Flesh and Spirit
   Paul exemplifies the internal battle each believer faces. In Galatians 5:17, he writes, “For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh.” This conflict caused him to spiral into self-hatred, leading to despair, but also deepening his reliance on God’s grace.

3. The Role of God’s Grace
   Despite his struggles, Paul found hope in God’s grace. Romans 7:24-25 reveals this beautifully: “Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!” Here, he acknowledges his weakness yet turns to Christ’s redemptive power, showing us that self-hatred can lead us to seek God fervently.

4. Transformational Love
   In his later letters, Paul speaks of transformation (Romans 12:2). “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind.” Instead of wallowing in self-hatred, Paul encourages believers to embrace their new identity in Christ, which leads to self-love through God’s eyes.

6.Healing Proces:
Acknowledging our struggles is essential for healing. Facing difficulties allows us to seek God’s support. 
   See James 5:16
7. Depth of Joy:
True joy coexists with sorrow. It’s rooted in hope and faith rather than the absence of pain. 
   See  2 Corinthians 6:10 –

Conclusion:

Brothers and sisters,GACA members and general public, Paul’s journey from self-hatred to embracing God’s grace illustrates that while we may acknowledge our flaws and sins, we don’t have to remain in despair. Christ’s love empowers us to view ourselves through God’s perspective (2 Corinthians 5:17: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation”). Let us take Paul’s example to heart, seeking renewal and transformation, and remember that our worth is not defined by our failures but by the redemptive love of Jesus.
May we have the mind to pause and reflect our lives with in mirror of God in us so as to know when to ammed our ways for better lives in Christ in Jesus name. Amen.
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                                                          Raph Michael

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